So…I’m struggling! I’m really struggling getting stuff on paper! I wish I had started writing earlier! Instead of sitting here with all this information and all these thoughts trying to get them into the formal academic language on paper (or word – any type of visual text, really). I wish I could just hypertext words like goldfarming – telling the reader that if you already know, I’m not going to waste your time explaining it – because I’m sick and tired of reading explanitory things over and over again in otherwise extremely interesting papers! So if you don’t what the word means – click on the link! Wouldn’t it be really cool if we could hand in thesis’ wiki style? How long’s it gonna take for that to be accepted, will it ever? I would love to give it a shot – I hate my arguments and discussions being slowed down by tediousness – I love having a rythm in my writing! Specially when I’m passionately involved in analysation! And I am passionate about this! I really am! I sometimes wonder if I may be stalling the actual writing process of this thesis because I don’t want it to be over! I really don’t! I want to continue researching MMORPGs or games! I really freakin do! But chances are just so minimum for funding to do a doctorate! And if I’m even going that far, I SERIOUSLY need to finish this thing! What if I’ve wasted 2 years of my life researching for nothing! Can’t let that happen either now, can we! But I’m stuck….I’m still really stuck! Every inch of my body is fighting me getting stuff written!
I suppose it doesn’t help that I think The Sims Online is a really boring game! And writing down what the game mechanics are, the social hierarchy a.s.o. ain’t piffing it up for me! Huh? Am I being too honest here? Should I maybe consider the fact that some future employer is reading this and thinking “My, what a messed up idiot! I can’t believe I even considered her!”. Oh poop! I don’t care! This is my blog, my opinions, my thoughts, my piece of mind!!
So ok! I’ll go back to work in just a minute….but I just need to write another post first!